The Story of Tomorrow

I have learned more about myself and the world in the last 2 months than I have learned in years of school. At the beginning of the summer, I made the move to San Diego, California and that’s where I’ve called home since.

In the past two months, I’ve learned heaps about finances, responsibilities and accountability, which is just a taste of what the real world is like. Not gonna lie y’all, adulting is tough. I wish I could just crawl back into bed and wake up as a high school freshman again, but….I can’t. And that’s just life. So long story short, when people say high school flies by, it really FLIES by.

I have a limited amount of days left here in San Diego, before I head back to Texas, and if I’m being honest, I’ve never been more excited to give my parents a big ole hug, give my siblings’ cheeks a squeeze and belly rub Gucci till he can’t stand me anymore. Being away from my family, my home, a comfortable lifestyle, has made me appreciate everything so much more. You can definitely tell because I’m not even bothered by the very soon to come “I told you so” by mom.

But, other than this sad story that I’m telling, I wanted to make sure to clarify that I 100% do not regret coming down to California, living on my own, figuring out the terrible public transit system on my own, paying bills on my own and finding friends on my own. I absolutely loved exploring not only this incredible city, but my abilities, strengths, weaknesses and limits.

My point in writing all these mushy gushy words is that if you are given the opportunity to step out of your comfort zone, explore the undiscovered, learn from mistakes, just do it. Yes, there might be a few tears shed when things take an unexpected turn, trust me, I had my fair share of meltdowns, but the many smiles, laughs and moments of self reflection are worth it all.

Now, will I miss the absolutely perfect weather, the fact that there are literally no bugs and super convenient vegan options, yes! However, I am so ready to show the Lone Star state all the new things I’ve learned and so so ready to put them in action.

Commitment Issues

New year, new me! That’s what they say, right? Except for in a recent study done, most people have been found to give up their new years resolution by the second week. The study done by the NY Post says that only about 8% of people succeed with their goal. That’s crazy! So you’re telling me that out of the 7 BILLION people in this world, only about 560 million can actually stick to the plan. Let’s talk about commitment issues, amiright?

The practice of challenging ourselves and setting goals at the beginning of the year have been around for thousands of years, so why can’t we get the hang of it?

What I believe to be the problem in our society is actually something that I heard not too long ago by really strong, tall guy with an unmistakeable accent. If you guessed Arnold Schwarzenegger, you’re right.

Not only is this guy one of the largest human being on the face of the earth, but if you ever take the time to listen to his life story, the struggles and obstacles he’s been through, he is a true inspiration. The most recent speech of his that I listened to talked about the art of goals and dedication. He talked about how by simply organizing your day and setting time for yourself (going to the gym, reading a book, or learning about something new), will help us waste much less time with useless tasks.

The one thing that he said in his speech that stuck with me the most is that the reason people don’t reach their goals is because they have a plan b. At first, that was really hard for me to understand, because I’ve been taught the saying “if plan A doesn’t work, there are 25 other letters in the alphabet.” However, when he went on to explain what he meant, it made complete sense. Instead of putting our entire time and energy into that one plan a, we are slowly contributing some of it to the plan b in the back of our minds. If we only have one goal to begin with, there won’t be any distractions or energy vampires veering us away from the end result. I know, right? Mind blown.

So as we go into this next year of 2019, I challenge you to find something that you 100% want to dedicate yourself to. Whether it’s a fitness, financial or spiritual goal, set your mind to what you want to do and stick with it. Give yourself enough credit, you can accomplish anything that you set your mind to.


*Here is the speech by Arnold Schwarzenegger for y’all to watch!*

Favorite Beauty Essentials ATM

Although I could sit here and tell you all of my Instgram posts feature a #allnatural me, I would 100 percent be lying. Like most girls, I’m not one to turn down a bare face and make-up free afternoon, however, I do love going the extra mile every now and then.

My niche is not make-up artistry and I’m no Jeffree Star however I do have a few of my favorite products that are my go-to’s at the moment.

  1. Tarte Amazonian Clay Full Coverage Foundation SPF 15

The great thing about Tarte Cosmetics is that they are 100% cruelty free! *Yay! We love a conscious company! * Formula wise, I am absolutely obsessed! You don’t need to go overboard with the amount and it lasts forever! My work consists of hanging out outside a lot and I found that it doesn’t smear or get cakey from the heat. My only critique is that once applied, it does look a little wet, so topping it off with a powder is a must!

2. EltaMD UV Clear Broad-Spectrum SPF 46 Sunscreen

Even though we’re on the back end of the summer season, sun protection is a year long must. I have been using this EltaMD sunscreen for a couple years now and I absolutely love it. It’s super thin and no greasy at all, which is a must for me!

3. Lancôme Monsieur Big Mascara

This has got to be my favorite mascara of all time. The brush is super full and grasps the full lash, from top to bottom. I really love the formula too, as it doesn’t clump easily and it also doesn’t take too much to completely coat the lashes. I am a huge supporter of this product and will probably have a complete meltdown if it ever discontinues.

4. Rose Water

I added rose water to my night time routine about 2 months ago and I’m so glad I did. I’ve noticed a significant difference in my skin’s health since then. Not only is rose water a great moisturizer but it’s also a facial toner as well. Because of this, it’s also great to apply before doing your make-up. I’ve linked the exact rose water that I currently use off Amazon. It’s a great price and it’s a great product!!

5. CeraVe Facial Moisturizing Lotion

Along with the rose water, I’ve also added this CeraVe moisturizer to my night time routine and I’m so glad I did. What I really like about this product is that the formula is very sheer and not sticky at all. After washing and cleaning off my make-up and splashing some rose water on my face, I add this as a finishing touch. After a couple months of pampering myself this way, I seriously can’t go to sleep without completing my routine.

Lessons Learned: Part 1

For the past 6 months, I have been serving as a personal assistant. Although the job pays well and I am very lucky to say my bosses are very sweet, I have indeed learned a couple lessons along the way.

First off, I can’t freaking wait to work for myself. As a side hustle, I do photography along with dog grooming and oh boy do I love it! I enjoy perfecting my craft, analyzing my work, taking notes on how to become a better worker, making my own schedule and setting my own pay rate. Throughout the last couple months I can whole heartily say that I have seen both of my businesses grow exponentially and I’ve actually had to stop myself so that I could mentally catch up to what my body was trying to accomplish. Working for someone else as my “main job” has made me appreciate working for myself so much more! I don’t have to pretend to like what I do when I actually enjoy it! Don’t get me wrong, I very much appreciate the opportunity that I have been given, however there are shadows to every sunny day.

However, literally being responsible for someone else’s life, as in making sure they make it to their appointments on time, to scheduling reservations, to making phone calls on their behalf, has made me a much more responsible person. Yeah, if my mom were to get a chance to write something here she’d say I often forget to fold my laundry and spend way too much money on Starbucks, but in the grand scheme of things, I’ve improved a ton. I have learned to take into account the importance of watching the clock, finishing tasks I’ve started and having a good attitude.

Although I would much rather be working for myself and telling other people what to do, this is where I am in the present moment and I am going to get as much out of it as I possibly can.

Dear Mom

Dear Mom,

I know that I say that I can’t wait to leave the house. I know that I say that I want to be independent.  I know. I know. I know. But, I don’t actually mean it .

I don’t want to go to the grocery store to buy my own food. I don’t want to learn to make fresh rice on my own. I don’t want to unlock my front door to find an empty apartment. I don’t want to get in my car to drive and not have the weight of your worry on my chest.

I’ll miss your all white furniture. I’ll miss your Christmas scented candles in July. I’ll miss your seasonal dish towels (Especially you nagging me for using the Easter ones in February). I’ll miss your sarcasm. I’ll miss your blunt honesty. I’ll miss our impromptu dance parties. I’ll miss your jam sessions while we’re riding in your boujee Audi. I’ll miss listening to you try to pronounce weird English words like onion & squirrel, because your voice over the phone just isn’t the same.

Thank you for being honest with me when I needed someone to snap me into place. Thank you for keeping me accountable for my decisions. Thank you for teaching me how to manage my money. Thank you for having fresh food made when I come home practice. Thank you for driving me everywhere under the sun. Thank you for loving on me when no one else did. But most of all, thank you for never leaving me.

You’ve stuck by my side through every thick and thin. You worked your butt off to provide for me when there was no one you could rely on. You’ve been honest with me when I needed you to be but you’ve also been considerate when it came the time.

I promise you, that no matter what, I will always love you, till my last breath on earth. I can’t wait to see what the future has in store for us and our relationship. I know I’m not nearly the adult that I think I am but I do know that I can tackle on this crazy world with you by my side. I love you for ever and ever.

Your daughter,

Katharina

Love Long Lost

I have spent the last couple years of my life envying girls’ #ManCrushMonday posts on my Instagram feed. I’ve prayed. I’ve fasted. I’ve read the Word. What I got from all of that… nothing. No knight in shining armor. No one to take me to homecoming . No one to take cute pictures with me. Nada. Zero. Zilch.

The last two years, I have especially struggled with this issue. I kept blaming myself. It was because I wasn’t skinny enough. I didn’t have six pack abs. My Instagram feed wasn’t cool enough. I didn’t have enough followers. I didn’t have enough likes on my posts. I wasn’t funny enough. I wasn’t smart enough… the list could go on and on. However one day, as I looked at myself in the mirror like I had done a million times before, I thought to myself “it’s not you, it’s God.”

This summer, my dear friend, Madeline Kennedy referred me to a book called Single, Dating, Engaged, Married: Navigating Life and Love in the Modern Age by Ben Stuart. To be honest, I was scared to read it. I was scared to be told into reality. That me getting upset because I can’t get a boyfriend was dumb and selfish. However, I can definitely say that I wish I had read it sooner. It would have saved me heartache that I caused myself. It would have saved my self esteem while it was digging itself into the ground. But most of all, it would have put me on the path to success a lot sooner.

When I say success, I don’t mean actually successfully getting a boyfriend. I just mean that my growth in my relationship with the Lord and the revelations of what He has in store for me could have been seen a lot sooner.

In the single section of the book, Ben Stuart talks about the “gift of being single.” When I read this for the first time I thought, “you have got to be kidding me.” How is being the only senior at my high school that hasn’t had their first kiss yet a gift? (Yes, it’s true. Publicly admitting this is all part of the journey) However, as I continued to read more into the chapter it began to list all of the responsibilities and destructions that came with having a special someone. At that moment, I felt a flashback to when we begged my mom for a puppy. She went on and on about how we had to take it out, feed it, pick up it’s mess, bathe it and how we couldn’t leave on vacations that often because dog boarding is expensive and taking a dog on a ski trip is just inconvenient. Apparently the same goes for a significant other. Stuart goes on to explain how less available you become when you’re constantly worried about a boyfriend/girlfriend to take care of. Less time to give to your family, your friends, your pets, but especially, God.

To summarize what the chapter says, God has made you single for a reason. Whether that’s because he wants you to devote more time to Him, grow in His word, or maybe He has someone special planned for your future that just isn’t quite in the picture yet. The biggest takeaway that I got from this is that God always has a plan *cue the overplayed Drake song.* Take the season of singleness in your life as a space for you to grow in yourself and the Lord. This a sign from God telling you that you need to go to church a little more or maybe even dive deeper into the Word.

If this is the only thing that you take away from this post, along with my sad, empty love life, it’s that there is a reason for everything. Don’t rush life. Every step that you take has been planned out by the Creator. Let Him guide you and lead you into the life that He has laid out for you.

Truth or Dare

This past summer has really been one to remember. I made new friends, stepped out of my comfort zone, and really saw Jesus working in the lives of so many people around me.

But as school comes around the corner, the “post-summer camp” hype begins to wear off and reality starts to kick in. The back to school shopping, practices, appointments, schedule pickup, and emails from school counselors and teachers begin to fill my email inbox.

As I laid in bed last night, unable to fall asleep, I began to reminisce on all the ways God has impacted my life this summer. But more than that, how I wished everyone around me could have felt that too. So in that moment, I challenged myself. I challenged myself to step out of my comfort zone and show people what it feels like to know you’re loved by Jesus.

It’s my senior year of high school. I can feel the pressure from my family, asking me what I plan on doing with my life. And as I sat and thought more about that question, I came to the conclusion that this “plan” doesn’t have to be a specific profession, university or major. It doesn’t have to be a step by step list of all the classes I plan on taking or how much money I see myself making in the next 10 years. All of those things will come at one time or another, none of it needs to be rushed. But the “plan” that does matter is the type of person you see yourself becoming. Do you see yourself as a Jesus follower for the rest of your life? A “I’m gonna wait till after college to really go to church” type of person? What about the person that lights up the room everywhere they go? The one that radiates love in all they do.

I think the real question here is, what kind of person do you see yourself becoming in the future?

So I challenge each and every one of you, whether you’re going to be a senior in high school, a 7th grader, or you graduated 23 years ago, to look at yourself in the mirror, take a piece of paper and a pen, and write out the person you want to become.

It doesn’t have to be something crazy and super duper huge, like being a missionary in Africa (although that would be super cool). But maybe the person that always smiles back at the person taking your order at the coffee shop, or maybe the person that is genuinely nice to the customer service rep on the other end of the phone.

Whatever it is that’s on your list, stick to it and strive to go above and beyond. I dare you!

XOXOXO